You are stronger than you think
If you have read my previous posts where i have spoken about medication, you'll know that I use. An alarm and 'normally' write down when I have taken my tablets. However this morning was a whole differnt story...In this post I shall be talking about remebering to take medicition, or in my case forgetting and the feeling of fear that you have forgotten to take it.
So my normal routine is wake up, check my phone, go to the bathroom to take my medication and then go have breakfest. However this morning - I woke up went to my bathroom, went to toilet. Then the next thing I remember is walking into the kitchen. My mind blanked out what happened inbetween going to the toilet and the kitchen. Which is when I would normally take my tablets. So I questioned did I even take it this morning as I dont remember? But I cant just go take a dose incase I did take it? But as we all know my memeory isnt great...
Therefore this lead me to go into panic, and fear. I have managed to successfully take my medicaiton for 10 years, always at the right time even when I have been away on party holidays and crazy events. So how did I manage to on a normal december day forget to take it. So frusted how my memeory just goes.
Next I called my doctor and he advised that I didnt take any medicaiton until my night dose but make sure I rest, eat and am watched all day. As due to the likelyhood of not having my morning dose I was much more likely to have a seizure. Which is terrifing as I have spent the last few years relaying on my medcaition to control my sezuires and let me lead a 'normal' day to day life. So today I felt like a day of stepping backwards but really I have learnt a huge lessons for me.
Buy a medication orgainser - Today I have ordered a medication orgainser, therefore I will always know if I have taken my tablets or not. Which is my main point in this post as today is such a scary day for me. I have spent the whole day in fear and frustration. As I feel like I have just been waiting for a sezuire to come. So I strongly advice a orgainser. Even with my alerts, when it comes to having bad memory problmes I have learnt that isnt reasuring or safe enough.
So fingers crossed I will be well for the rest of the day and counting down the hours until I can take my medication! And need that organiser to arrive ASAP!
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