You are stronger than you think
As i have said previously this is not a blog for attention I have been thinking about starting up a blog to raise awareness over the past couple of months, as epilepsy is a condition which is hardly spoken about, nor are we educate on it. I strongly believe that if I had been educated on it before i was diagnosed I would of felt a lot less scared and confused, making my journey easier. I really hope this blog also helps people who are epileptic or have anxiety to relate to as i know its scary but it gets better, trust me. So heres my story of my first sezuires.
My first big seizure – Ten years old, it was roughly about five days prior to christmas day. My sister and i had gone into waitrose to get some food. I remember this feeling of my body telling my sit down, as I was walking around the supermarket. Which I completely ignored as i thought how silly my brain was being. Then I vividly remember turning onto the dairy section and I felt this sudden feeling of needing to throw up, then before I knew it I was looking up at the bright lights of the ceiling surrounded by people looking over me.
I felt confused, sick and spaced out. Everyone around me thought I had fainted. I then got taken to A & E they checked me out and saw ‘no problems’ so I was sent home pretty quickly. All i wanted to do was sleep, I had an awful headache. For the following few days I slept and had no energy.
My next seizures that I remember where the ‘smaller ones’ as i call them. I just remember being in year 6 at primary school and the teacher would say something and its like I went deaf for 5 -10 seconds. Then I would feel sick and spaced out for the most of the time as I was having these on a daily bases.
This was my absence epilepsy I was having several every day but no one knew what it was, my parents where uneducated on it, teachers didn’t even know!
At the age of 10 this is when my life changed, i started to feel like a different person feeling spaced out and sick most of the time.
Above is a picture of around the time when my epilepsy started
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